Ms Rapsodee

You should have seen me back then..with my hand-me down jeans and over-sized shirt..clutching a piece of paper in my hand..with my heart in my mouth..lying in wait for her..unsure of who was the hunter..and who was the prey..ℓoℓ..u see,I was'nt always this self-confident,smooth-talking charmer *wink*..back then,I was a tad bit unsure of myself..especially around the ladies..let me walk u down the alley-way of my memories..just for a bit

Its the summer of 1997..I'm barely out of secondary school..the youngest kid in my class..dreamy-eyed,shy and infatuated..*sigh*Yes! infatuated..and Tomi was the object of my affections..
She wasn't the prettiest one around..neither was she the sharpest pencil in the pack..that was obvious too..but my heart has always had a mind of its own..and it chose Tomi..Love is such a delightful pain,I tell u..I loved Tomi with every inch of my bony frame..wt every minute of my adolescent life..Phew! There was only one problem..I was too scared †o tell her..

Yes,I know..I was a chicken all right..a tongue-tied one for that matter..I would sneak glances at her in school and when she looked my way,I would duck quickly praying she didn't catch me..lord knows,how long I played that hide-and-seek game with Tomi..each time,I saw her talking with some boy in school,my heart would constrict with jealousy and I would wish a thousand deaths on the impudent fellow all the while cursing myself for being such a spineless fool..somehow,I knew she sensed my interest..obviously,I wasn't too good at playing peeping tom and the intensity of my glances must have told a story of their own..but she gave me no encouragement..watching me underneath her lashes..her brown eyes observing me..her bashful knight in shining armor

Then came Valentine..and its fever got †o me..it was now or never..I wrote her a simple love note ending with the words 'will u bε my val?',enclosed it with a flower in an envelope and sent it †o her through a junior student.JAMB Class had ended for the day..but I hung around hoping †o see her..valentine was the next day..so I waited..with bated breath and sweaty palms..almost certain of rejection..yet half-hoping
And then she came out..with two of her friends in tow..all laughing...Good Heavens! My nerve broke..and shattered into fragments..I didn't wait to hear the verdict..nah..I bolted for home..with my tail tucked firmly between my legs..Not in front of those girls! I would rather die..on Valentine's day,I hid at home..but the next day,I mustered the courage to attend class..

There she was again..not saying a word..watching me from underneath her lashes..brown eyes not missing a thing..and my heart sank..I was the knight who ran away..the romeo who refused †o die..the one who got way..Pls forgive me,Tomi..I would rather die another day..ℓoℓ..James Bond

P.S
I never got another chance †o express my feelings †o Tomi.She moved away from our neighborhood soon afterwards..Sometimes,I wonder what would have been her answer..if I had waited that day..I guess we would never know..

Tomi,if u ever get †o read this..Happy valentine!